you'll get over it , he said.

you've made me dizzy.

how can one simple press of

your lips can convert my universe

into the complete polar opposite.

"todo lo que sueño es tan dulce, tan dulce como tu"

are we using each other?

it's the only conclusion i've come up with

open up, i'm reaching for you and i cannot grasp

but i'm not entirely convinced that i can take you

seriously yet i'm still yearning for all of you .

here you go, you make me dizzy.

Moheek

i want to make public announcement, is everyone listening?

wait no that doesn't matter , as long as i have your undivided

attention. I want you to understand how special this is , its better

than a friendship but its something better than a sisterhood. I

believe that you are me, i am you ,and we are all together.

here i am corny , quoting the genius that is the beatles. you've

given hope that a friendship exists, that not all girls are trashy

low lives jealously aiming to fuck up everyone elses life. i can

say i love you and not regret any syllable in those three words.

you've become my keepsafe and i am sure i can become yours.

no matter how i hard i try to sound like i'm not in love with you

i can't , i'm just too comfortable to not care, and that's what

friendship is. thank you.

pardon me.

like i told dhariana, it was something more than happiness but i just

cannot grasp the correct word that defined all the emotions i felt last night.

i came to a low, a low low my ex called me. his name is luis. we stopped talking

earlier this year, i can say i made the mistake to bring up his ex , to get

back at him, i felt like i was being attacked, and he decided to never talk

to me again. he IMed me to ask me for my number and without hesistation

i gave it to him, i wonder why , - sigh - so he called, and he tells me.

"i don't know why i'm calling you honestly, i apologize for this

spontaneous call, it's just that i got nothing better to do , see i almost

died of alcohol poisoning not too long ago, i was partying with nelson,

and i woke up not knowing where the fuck i was , i was bruised, i blacked

out, i'm having the time of my life" and so here came the waterworks, i

just can't hear this type of thing, especially since i still CARE, i was infuriated.

that he let himself go this far. i LOVED him a lot. then he said "i wish i knew out

of all people why i'm calling you, you're on my list people i never want to talk to again

i hope i never have to do this again, this is a just type one night stand , just on the

phone" dhariana sat next to me, threatning to leave if i kept talking to him on the

phone, probably because she's seen me cry for this kid as well, i hung up ,

he was like "i cant believe, youre hanging up on ME, after i call YOU" the truth:

i woulda gave it all up for him, dhariana would have meant shit to me, if it was alex

a year earlier, just so i can feel like someone needed me. but thank god, i hung up.

it was the right decision for me. everything does happen for a reason but god forbid

he dies, i still love him. moviing on to bigger better things, i spent the night smoking hookah

dancing, and laughing like there was no tomorrow, i felt so alive, no, i felt infinite.

dharii left, she calledme, we have the most intellectual conversations, i love that

we wrote about each other and saved it. it made me feel good. i'm loving my life.

deception, seriously.

i just completely fucking hate how .. the guys i've dated

start dating people i know, i find that like you have no respect at the fuck all

FOR ME ! it's just ridiculous, like this conversation i've had with a new friend

i've made with a new friend zuriel, about how its better to date someone

with no mutual friends, cause then shit gets complicated. how i wish i can do it that.

Valentine's Day.

was A FUCKING BLAST, even though it was celebrated extra late :|

no worries though, i told david we'd be valentines, i don't think he took up on that offer much.

NO WORRIES THOUGH. i have karla, which got me the cutest little things.

i remembered when i wanted her to be mine so bad ... oh well

she's the BEST EVAAAAR, i can't deny that we have the coolest friend ship evaaar.

i felt upset that i only got her a pair of earrings, i wanted her to get

a journal with an owl on it, so she could write her deepest thoughts

and still think of me :/

- sigh - thats all i have to say .. i need to commit a bit more.

it's been awhile.

i've haven't posted much, but new years was great.

and it's carlos' birthday today , i love him, i got him a present.

and i have this crush on this one guy from tumblr

he actually came with me to target to get the present with me

he has this incredible smile, but he's so .. private and mysterious to me

.. it might be differen't this time you know?

he doesn't seem like the rest. i feel too confident, and i know when it's like that.

it's not going to go far, let's see how it goes.

but yeah, ronny and letty and slowly getting out of my life.

and it completely hurts the two single individuals that i've fallen for

so hard are leaving like it's so easy, and it's hard for me .. just no ..