goodCLEANfun.

funny

how the people you LEAST expect to be there
at your worst are very much indeed present.


i'm glad because of that.

desanimada.

so i haven't written in here lately, it has
def. something to do with this whole mess
i was going through with ronny and it sucks
that i'm not the type of person to get over someone
that quickly and stuff but it's like i'm doing this thing
where i'm not paying much attention to it and i feel
really calm and really happy i only really cry when i
talk to him about it or one of my friends 'cause it hurts
to get your heartbroken in general. i need to learn to let
go because he's with her now as i said he would be and
he seems pretty content, he's not fully over me and we
both know it. we'll see how time handles it and i started
talking to my friend karla again, it was great to finally
really relate to someone who went through this similar
problem, i feel closer to her now and it's great. honest.
i need to talk to more people, because when i was with
him i stopped talking to so many and isolated myself for
him and i don't understand why but that's the past now
and i need to live for the future plus this is my senior year
and i'm really going to make it the best that i possibly can
with or without him. but i honest to god think that it's going
to be hard for anyone to separate us because we have this
chemistry like it's freaking unbelievable as friends you can
sense it and just imagine like us being together, i don't know
but it's really amazing. bottom line i really need to let go.
because moping around for him isn't going to get me anywhere
i need to prepare myself for the SATs, look into different colleges
you know prepare myself because it's gunna be a hectic and
expensive future i'm looking at with the photography major
i'm looking into i just really need to experiment and find the
potential i know i have in me.



wish me luck.
:)