the monster mash.

i've been nuts to write in this, i haven't been consistent
and for tht i'm dissapointed but that's fine, i'll make it up
i think i really wanted to do the youtube videos mainly because
i guess one day if i really dedicate myself to, i'll become a tv personality
i don't know, one day it just came to me while i was watching AOTS
but yes .. my vacation in the bahamas was amazing even though the
salt water fucked me over THEN but , it made my skin look great
my skin hasn't flared up.
fucking eczema.
i really miss my father, i still want to see
Harry Potter & The Half- Blood Prince
my senior yr. of school & i need to build up my portfolio for
photography maybe a new camera, i want a job once i start if
i can even get one seeing as the fucking economy is ass backwards
at the moment. ugh, senior yr. i feel fucking old, i need to get my
permit by the end of this yr. it'll help i think.
look at me i'm peeling.
i need to have some connection to dhariana, she's the closest thing i
have to a best friend like srsly, i feel so comfortable around her but it
seems as though i'm irritating here, i guess i'm an annoying person to
be around but who isn't? mmaybe it's the way things happen that have
made her act this way. i don't know why people don't get to know me.
ronny and i are fine, i'm glad he's my companion :)
he excites me in sooo many ways ;)
oh god, does he.

anyways.. getting carried away here.
<_< i'm getting off this.


i need more real friends.

Casio Exilim XS-S5

that is the brand of my new camera and although it was pricey,
it's been really wonderful so FAR! :D YES, can not wait to
capture the beauty of the bahamas with my little toy aghhh.
AND like i mentioned before in my previous blog it has a youtube mode
which is great for me since i wanna start making videos and such.
ugh, tomorrow to the pool yayyy!!
i'll write again tomorrow :D



au revoir<3

ideas.

well, i've been thinking...
that i want to start making YouTube videos!!
you know like those girls doing hair and makeup tutorials also like
reviewsfor certain products or vlogging when i don't feel like typing
at all. and i think it really might be a nice and interesting way of
meeting new people. i think why i really wanna do it is because i do
have a passion for make up and fashion and stuff and i think by
doing stuff like that it might make me better at doing my make up
and stuff. trial and error ladies and gents. who are non-existant
because i'm pretty sure no ONE is reading this ... YET!!


but yes, i do have a couple of friends that are interested in
making YouTube videos like my BEST friend Brandon. and
i want variety to my YouTube Channel :)



Good Thing my camera has a YouTube Mode for like recording and stuff,
i think that would be REALLY useful and stuff. this is just a temporary
camera though because i wanna save up for my DSLR so i can build
up my portfolio for college applications and such. and i need to start
going to this after school program once it starts so i can work in the
darkroom and do more stuff learn more and learn about my style and
the "skills" i possess which are hidden somewhere inside ...
i know i have potential i just need to experiment more and stuff.



AND omg. i CAN NOT wait for my family vacation.
we're going on a cruise to the bahamas!!
it's going to be sooooooo GREAT.
ugh, JUST about 1 more week left :(


i wonder where my boyfriend & my dharii are >_O
BLAH!

ticked.

i'm really bothered ; earlier today i purchased my first camera online
& i bought it at bestbuy.com when i get home, my sister in law tells me
that she bets i could have gotten it cheaper at walmart.com ... well guess what?!


it did happen, not only could i have gotten it cheaper i could have had a
8 gig memory card instead of a 2 gig even tho it was free, it still would have
came out way cheaper, ugh I'M really really pissed and i tried calling to cancel
the order and they say its not possible cause it's already been shipped.
what the fuck?! are you serious, i JUST ordered it like a couple of hours ago.
ugh ... i know im not going to get over this at least for a couple of months.
i am that type of person. and i just ordered any camera really because
the cameras that i was usually run over 300 dollars and i dont have that
type of money. instead of waiting and using that money for my bahamas
trip, i feel like a dick...



but yes this is the camera i purchased:

it's official.

ronny & i are boyfriend and girlfriend.
wow ... it's amazing because NO ONE would have thought
about it and i'm SOOOO serious when i say this.
it ALL started freshman year of high school, we had living
environment together and i had the only crush on him but apparently
he thought i had hated him because when i was younger i
would really act like i didnt like those who i had something
for <_<''>o i had the same lunch period as him and we got closer
and closer until this one day in march of this year where some dreams
i had with him had led me to telling him that i liked him, and for awhile
i didnt think he did like me because at the moment he was involved
with someone and it was very complicated between him for awhile ....
i was very confused and so was he when he broke up with the girl
he was seeing, everything seem better we no longer had to sneak
kisses and make false promises that we knew we would break.
we were inevitable ... one of his favourite words.
well, of course everyone we knew started saying even more that
we're going out or that we shud be together and now weeks and
days later here we are. we're together.


and i'm so happy now that i'm with him.
i just hope that I don't do anything to threaten this relationship <3