my mother of god.

seems like every relationship i'm in people think or know that
they have feelings for another && that shit i really unfair to me.
i hate it, you know and i never believed it could happen in this
relationship with ronny. i believe so much in this, i do.

but he fucked this, and truth be told i'm really going to have
a harder time trusting him. what the fuck have i done to make
these fucking people question their feelings towards others.
fuck that, i don't need this shit & if he does come to conclusion
that he does have feelings for her, that is it. i'm not going to be
involved in a relationship with another fucker. i'm young and
i will do as i please. it hurts me so much to know that the
person i've wanted for so long and now have could have feelings
for someone else. i don't find anything wrong with me talking to
luis, so what if he was my ex, he was my friend first. and letty?
she's here to stay. it's wrong of me but i'm the type of person that
isn't really fair at all. it's my way or else you're fucked.
i don't even know what i'm talking about anymore.

and what's the fucking deal with people i'm involved with calling
me their exes or their former intrests names like.
letty - amanda
john - don't remember, but probably called me stephanie.
luis - erica.
ronny - amanda,
pardon me but i'm FED up with the name "amanda" , and if
you do call me another name, it's obvious you have something
towards them.

ay dios mio, la gente.

anyways, i really want to go to trash and burn but i'm not sure
the economic situations not well at all and i am going to dorney
park next sunday but i've been stuck in this house ever since we
got back. all i do is take care of emely, i need to enjoy myself a
little bit with my own friends and maybe not my boyfriend.
everyone needs space.

P.S. TRUE BLOOD IS ONLY FREAKING GETTING BETTER :D